Good evening, brothers and sisters.
It is Saturday night, and it is one of the rare times in which I feel free. It doesn't matter how drunk I am. Tomorrow is only Sunday, and I won't be penalized for missing any obligations.
I don't know what made me decide to start writing here to you all, or maybe I do but I am too ashamed to admit it, but here we are: you and I.
It's kind of an old joke by now, but it's still true, that one of the nice things about being a misanthrope during a pandemic is that one can self-isolate with impunity. But even so, it would be a lie to say that I'm not lonely.
I wonder how all of you are feeling.
I have recently disengaged from social media, particularly Facebook. A friend of mine asked me why it is that I have such a strong reaction to it, but I don't know the answer to that question. It was a sudden awareness that I couldn't tolerate it and I had to go, maybe not unlike what started to drive me to Japan in at least 2005 (and culminated in 2006). I am grateful to my friends who were willing to take the L'eclipse Nue page off of my hands, otherwise it would have disappeared with my departure.
Is it my upcoming birthday and its corresponding appraisal of my position in life that is weighing heavily upon my psyche, inability to accept what is, confusing my true self with the ego, problems with a job that I find utterly demeaning and demoralizing....? It's all of these things and more.
Well, switching gears now, I do have a few ideas of things that I'd like to tell you about, if you are interested. This one here is just kind of putting a toe into the water.
If you have any questions or ideas for things you'd like for me to talk about, do feel free to comment or send me a message through the contact page.
Daniel Sine (of L'eclipse Nue)