Good evening, brothers and sisters.
I hope that the holiday season is treating you well so far.
I suppose this is the time of year when we get reflective about what we’ve done this year, and so on. To say that this has been a strange year would be a gross understatement.
The last (and only) performance that L’eclipse Nue did in 2020 was at H0L0 in NYC. I just checked online, and fortunately they appear to be surviving the pandemic. That performance was back in February, and it was before I was even aware of what was already going on in China, and before the pandemic swept the United States, causing widespread shutdowns. Before the pandemic came here, I was already planning on stepping away from live performances for at least the remainder of the year. I told myself that at the end of 2020, I would reassess how I felt about performing live in 2021.
Soon after, of course, life changed for us all. Everything shut down, and there were no live performances to speak of, save for quasi-live online events through streaming video. What had begun as a personal decision was now a near-universally observed hiatus.
The soul searching journey that I had planned to take after February’s performance never really happened. Or if it did, I got lost, and eventually found my way back to where I had started. The answer never revealed itself. The only thing that I can say so far is that I am not missing performing or attending live shows at all. Whether that is simply a result of depression or whether it is something else, I cannot be sure.
We’ve all experienced a lot this year, and for most of us, life has gone much differently than we could have anticipated: that goes the same for me. So, basically, what I am trying to say is that I am still figuring things out, and the same old demons need to be dealt with. Perhaps I can write off 2020 and try again in 2021.
I had originally intended to talk about the usual “here is what L’eclipse Nue did in 2020 in case you’re interested”, but I kind of went off track. So I’ll write about those other things next time. For a change of pace, the next entry will be a positive one about good things that happened and things that I liked.